Yet another big contest come and gone, and again I got my hopes up for nothing.  I could have joined the argument that dA admins seem a bit biased to favor digital art, but that always just opens up a can of worms and makes me feel like a whiny child....try harder....that's what it comes down to.

I suppose I could be one of those "extroverts" who gets involved in the community to gain favor and recognition, but as that is not the typical nature of an artist, I think I'll just slink back into my dark happy corner of the inter-webz.  I rather just have people be happily surprised by stumbling across my gallery and leaving a few kind words.

It always seems a bit of a smack in the face by reality.  I have no illusions that I am an untrained artist with much room to grow, because a true artist never stops learning and improving.  I don't like to compare my works to "professionals" or others with lots of training because I truly believe that art is in the eye of the beholder.  Not all professionals in my opinion are good, and not all amateurs are bad.  In fact, I have seen some truly wonderful pieces from amateur/hobbyist artists which I think far surpass some of the things shown in galleries by those who spent a small fortune on school and training.

Anyway, enough rambling.....I was over it weeks ago, but I had to renew my journal as to not remind myself about the fact that I did have my hopes up.  I have a few great Disney fan art pieces that I'm currently working on.  I find myself humming Disney songs in my head daily, particularly when my brain goes on auto-pilot and pushes out all the other annoying thoughts that worry me.  Disney stuff makes me happy.  It makes me remember my childhood and simpler times. Now if only someone would offer me a job as a Disney Fine Artist....my dreams would be made real....but as I don't want to face a level of rejection of that magnitude, I'm not going to go seeking it out.  I rather they just come to me, or some kind hearted person with connections gives me a glowing reference from someone who can grant that wish....

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